Thursday, June 5, 2008
this whole incident is gonna change me.
i dont really know and i cant really differentiate right from wrong. i'd do anything to divert this emotional pain away, even if it takes hurting myself to do it.
i used to seek refuge in vicki and jodie. but now that they're fighting its like my only emotional support is gone. i really dont wanna add to their problems and let my emo mood like affect them further cuz yahhs.. i love them loads
seriously, if i come to think about it, the only people i can turn to with problems are them. my parents. please lahhs, they would probably say ' why you emoing? you got a lot of time isit? dont need to study huh' thats if they actually noticed that i am emo.. which is like ONCE IN MY 16 YEARS. and it was over my sec 3 EOY results. all they said when they saw me crying was 'never study then now come and regret huh'
i dont deny that i didnt study hard enough but it would be nice if they werent so direct.
other than praying and talking to god, and vicki and jodie with them giving me advice.. there isnt really any other person i can talk to.
ohh. there's david though.. but how often is he online.. like yeahh..
fabian? please lahhs. he would comfort me for a bit then ask me to quit it.-.-
can you guys relate? its not that i dont want to trust/ believe either one of you.. in fact i do. i believe both sides of the story. it seems a bit weird but yeah.
i'm feeling like super alone now. yeah you guys are there for me. but with you guys fighting its like.. OMG. i dont know how to say. all i know is that i'm on a verge of an emotional breakdown..
EMO IS LOVE.
i saw the shirt today with michelle tang. I'M SO GONNA GET IT
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